what a wonderful feeling having a beautiful japanese girl lying in your bed all naked. satisfied after having a few rounds of sex. ahhhh ... i feel so ... alive!! oh hell ... this will probably be another fling im going to have. shes freaking 23 years old! but hey, she digs me enough for me to bring her home! i dont know how i did it but i did!! kudos for me! hahah ...

oh well ... better get some shut eye. she wants to go back early later. she lives all the way in puchong!

oh yeah ... before that, samir, jasmine, sookie, kathleen, christin, joe and i were at starbucks bukit bintang. having free flow of anything in starbucks! wicked no? heh. we sat there until all the fireworks were done. then they headed home while joe and i chit chatted for awhile. then it was my turn to go back. on the way back to my car, i met this hot japanese chick. God, she was hot! so i told myself this is the time to prove that your a man. so i flirted with her a little and guess what ... shes on my bed!! well yeah. sleepy time now. nitey nites ya'll.

rick.

the past has gotten on me today. i was fine previously until tonight. i tried to sleep, but i cant. its pretty hard just forgetting what happened. thinking back and wondering was is my fault? was it me that caused all of this to happen? it most probably was.

everytime i go to places jac and i usually go, i scout around, searching for her through the crowd. hoping to see her and hoping not to see her. its like i wouldnt know how to react if i actually see her one day. to either say something or just walk away. if she's there with her new bf, would i fake it that im glad to see him ... ? i wouldnt know until the time actually comes.

thinking back ... we had such wonderful times. the places we went, the things we did, the secrets we shared, the moments that never seem to surprise me every single time, and most definately, the endless love. well, thats my point of view, i wouldnt know what she would think. but thats me.

i appreciate every single thing shes done for me ... until that day. i dont know why but i cant seem to forget that day. i wasnt even thinking. i just acted. i felt so stupid. and here i am. sitting in front of this stupid computer ... kicking myself in the butt for the mistakes i made in the past. pfft. how lame can i get ...

rick.

nothing really interesting happening but only one thing. an interview with starbucks. hopefully i would get the job and that would keep me busy and keep me from thinking about the past. oh and of course the extra income. other than that, everything has been the same. sy and i ate a whole large pizza each from dominoes. its the buy 1 free 1 promo. i just love it! but im so stuffed i think i might just puke.

i miss her...why? i dont know. her image just keeps popping into my head all the time.

rick.